Rajka – Tiny Murder - Group 3
On a lazy Sunday afternoon I feel mellow. My mind wonders wherever it wishes. I’ve been playing Chopin’s 1 st Concerto the whole afternoon, dozing off pleasantly from time to time.
I cannot just sit here and listen to music. Too many things have to be done,
no matter how dull and boring they might be. There must be more to life
than just daily maintainace. I must do something. Anything. I cannot let
the time pass me by.
I get up, go to the kitchen, look at the breakfast dishes, shrug my shoulders
and make a Cappuccino.
Cappuccino in hand, I am startled by the telephone. I do not want to answer it, but then, you never know. Putting down the mug, I spill coffee and burn my hand. The phone keeps on ringing.
Shall I first wipe the spill? I should put my hand under cold water first.
I answer the telephone.
“Is this my countryman?” asks the voice.
“No, this is your country woman.”
“I am sorry I cannot distinguish between men and women. The only thing that matters is that you and I are from the same part of the world.”
For the past 40 years, every January, Milan calls to invite me to his “Slava”, a party in honor of his Saint’s namesake, a tradition of Orthodox Serbs. The ritual is always the same. He stands at the entrance door offering each guest a little spoon and asks them to dip into the bowl of wheat and honey, the symbol of good faith. For many years there a stream of guests came and went between 6pm and midnight. Suckling pig and a generous spread of Serbian specialties were preceded by Slivovica, the national plum brandy.
When I first began attending his Slava, the majority of guests were Yugoslavs: Serbs, Croats, Slovenes, Macedonians, Bosnians, Montenegrians. There were also some Americans, Germans, French, Latin Americans, a few Chinese, Japanese and Koreans. Most of them were married to a Yugoslav.
Milan used to say:
“I am a lucky man. I have United Nations right here in my house. The difference between mine and the official UN is that we all get along much better and have much more fun.”
It is not so any more. Every year there are fewer and fewer people coming. Ever since the war in my country some people who were Yugoslavs now identify with their own “newly independent country.” I am the only Croatian in a Serbian home to show and accept good faith.
I tell Milan that I admire his determination to celebrate “Slava” with people regardless of their nationalities.
“Ah, what really matters is that we are still the same people only under different flags. Those who changed have committed tiny murders. They’ve killed off part of their original selves.”
“I am glad there are people like you. I can boast to my friends:
There is a man, a Serb, who keeps on inviting to his sacred holiday a woman, a Croat.”
I am back in my chair, with the half-cup of Cappuccino. I put my feet up and listen, again, to Chopin. I wonder: to whom does he belong? To everyone, to no one. Another soul who transcends us all and makes us whole. Content, I listen

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March 11, 2008 at 1:26 pm
David V
a simple comment: nicely done! What the reader doesn’t realize is how with the texture of your writing you have them feel the daily angst of your personal life battling the small stuff between dabbling on the piano keys or dusting furniture, both a necessity — yet soon realizing by the end that life is better seen from a distance. Friends and love are what endure. A feeling of significance, of belonging when often the smaller stuff whittles our identities away. Again, Rajka, nicely done.
March 18, 2008 at 12:31 am
Mary Agnes
I like the way you “frame” this story, lulling us with Chopin and Cappuchino on a mellow Sunday afternoon. We are put in a mood to hear an important message. You are setting us up to hear the phone call from Milan. You again fool us into thinking only of delight as you regale us with the details (plum brandy!) of his “Slava” in honor of his Saint’s namesake. We feel like we are going to a party. But, again, we are being set up to hear the important message. We finally learn the truth. War has come into this story, in the Chopin/Cappuchino afternoon, in the fun Slava party, into hosts who really care about not hating people and want to embrace all. When Milan says,”Those who changed have committed tiny murders. They’ve killed off part of their original selves,” it brings a pang to me about where this writing exercise can go and where you took us.
March 24, 2008 at 9:12 am
Ozzykf
i am gonna show this to my friend, guy